there is a silver light flickering in the distance
a candle perhaps
or is it hope
it is the light in all our hearts,
but it seems so far away
i dream while awake and find there the challenges
of my life in metaphor
never clearly defining a path
but always that light in the distance
always hope as a guide –
i would like to hold that light tight and close
giving myself sight and course
but distance seems necessary
is it easier to fight and struggle
than to walk slowly,
and with purpose
each step closer the candle flickers and dies then is renewed further down the path
is this simply life
are we made to want to suffer
or do we simply think we must
who taught us that suffering is human
who made us feel that life must be hard
who said that pain cannot simply be accepted and embraced with love
i want to embrace pain knowing it means i have lived
and to hold that candle
in my hand to guide me through it,
not make me long for less
can i live without regret?
do i want to?
does the sea regret the pain it encompasses?
does the sky remember the dangers is possesses?
or does the earth simply embrace and accept its role in the universe?
i ask myself
why do i question everything
why do i see the world as dark or light
why do i question my place
perhaps I simply am
and that’s enough
is that enough?
and if not…
© Nichole Donje’
Author: Finding True North
Nichole Donje is an interdisciplinary artist, activist, and leader.
A philosopher and self-exploration addict, Nichole is currently working on two books of art and poetry FINDING TRUE NORTH and LIFE POEMS. She is a visual artist and photographer. Nichole founded and ran the highly regarded New York City based independent theatre company TAPT from 2006-2016. Serving as TAPT’s Artistic Director, Nichole worked diligently to support new and forgotten works that help shape the way we view the world around us.
A recognized leader, Nichole served three terms as Vice President of the Board of Directors for The Players. Currently, she chairs both the Communications and Theatre Committees which she established. The Players celebrates the rich cultural life of New York City with exclusive member-only events that include live performances, readings by leading authors and playwrights, film screenings, and dining in its famous Grill Room. More information about The Players may be found at theplayersnyc.org. A key influencer of the Players current revitalization she has become an advocate for the art and livelihood of a social club. The Players not only honors yesterday’s and today’s luminaries of the performing arts but also reminds us of the necessity of building face to face relationships.
Nichole is a member of SAG-AFTRA, LPTW/League of Professional Theatre Women, LeanInNYC, and The Players.
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